one.

Whoever comes are the right people. Whatever happens is the only thing that could have. Whenever it starts is the right time. Whenever it's over, it's over.

two.

Some days you wake up, and you immediately start to worry. Nothing in particular is wrong, it's just a suspicion that the forces are aligning quietly and there will be trouble.
^I've been having a lot of those days lately.

three.

If I knew the last time I hugged you was going to be the last time, I would have held you closer and breathed in your scent for one extra beat. If I knew the last time I kissed you was going to be the last time, I would have lingered on your lips for a moment longer and tasted your sweetness on my tongue. If I knew the last time you held me was going to be the last time, I would have committed every dip, curve, and muscle of your body to memory, because your bony shoulder was the softest place I've ever rested my sleepy head. If I knew the last time I heard you laugh was going to be the last time, I would have recorded it so I could convince myself that I want your happiness above all else. If I knew the last time we made love was going to be the last time, I would have dug my nails deeper into your back and whispered your name a little louder, because I know you always liked that. But this caught us both off guard. I didn't know it would be the last time. And now I can't remember any of it.

four.

I know a lot of people know who he is, but I also know that not many of them got to see the side of him that I did. And that guy, well, I'll never forget him. Not ever. I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him, and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Including the way it ended. Your heart needs to go through some bumps like these every once in a while. Besides, he has made a monumental impact on my life these past few years. And I know, no matter what, my stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.

five.

Sometimes, I feel like the heart and mind play tricks on each other. That just when you've gotten yourself convinced with one that something is what you want, the other steps in and makes you feel nothing but doubt.

six.

I've learned that you can never expect anything from anyone, no matter who it is. The second you expect something from someone, you're setting yourself up for heartbreak.

seven.

Sometimes, there is no easy way out. Sometimes, you just have to grin and bear it. Sometimes, the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just brace yourself and bite your lip. Sometimes, you just have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship there comes a point when the damage is too much, and no matter how good it once was, the memories can't sustain you. You have to save yourself, knowing all the while that it will hurt like hell. You can't keep giving something everything if you get nothing in return.

eight.

I saw you today and I realized just how far apart we've grown. I know I should talk to you, and ask you how you're doing, and I really wish I could. But it just occurred to me that we're strangers now. You don't know me anymore, much less want to, and that's okay. You've moved on. Everything is different now.

nine.

Life is the ability to feel so happy you think your insides are going to explode. It's being so upset or disappointed, you feel as if your stomach just dropped ten feet out of place. It's running so hard you can barely breathe. It's the feeling of panic when you know you've been caught doing something wrong. It's that sudden rush before you kiss someone you care about. It's opening your eyes and feeling them sting because you spent the whole night crying. It's letting people go because new ones come in, and realizing that life doesn't have a purpose unless you let it.

ten.

Please know that there are much better things in life than being lonely or liked or bitter or mean or self-conscious.
We are all full of shit.
Go love someone just because.
I know your heart may be badly bruised, or even the victim of numerous knifings, but it will always heal. Even if you don't want it to, it keeps going. There are the most fantastic, beautiful things and people out there, I promise. It's up to you to find them.

eleven.

There's a part of me that wants an answer, and a part that doesn't want to know; a part of you that I'm in love with and a part that I'm willing to let go.

twelve.

Being vulnerable doesn't have to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. It creates self-empowerment, and the kind of connections with others that we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives.

thirteen.

Each morning when I open my eyes, I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead; tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.

fourteen.

Some people don't want to be saved, because saving means changing and changing is always harder than staying the same. It takes courage to face yourself in the mirror and look beyond the reflection, to find the you that should have been, the you who got de-railed by cruel childhood events, events that took your life's natural trajectory and twisted it. Changing it into something unimaginable, or even incredible.

fifteen.

In life, people tend to wait for good things to come to them, and by waiting, they miss out. Usually, what you wish for doesn't fall into your lap, it falls somewhere nearby, and you have to recognize it, stand up, and put the time and work it takes to get it. This isn't because the universe is cruel. It's because the universe is smart. It has it's own cat-string theory and knows that we don't appreciate things that fall in our laps.

sixteen.

I'm tired of looking for an answer, but being patient is a lesson that I never learned. I know we are headed for disaster. I've seen the ending, and it only gets worse.

seventeen.

We all lose friends. We lose them to death, to distance, and to time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on.

Sorry for the odd number of quotes in this update, I couldn't find any more that I liked. There seems to be a shortage of decent quotes lately. Anyway, hope you are all well =]
Lately, I've been feeling kind of apathetic to everything. And it frightens me.
Actually, maybe apathetic isn't the right word. I've actually been feeling more sadness recently than I have in ages. I'm the kind of girl who very, very, VERY rarely cries. Like, the last time I cried was in June, because of a stupid boy who broke my heart. And for the last week, the smallest, most ridiculous things have been setting me off, and I feel like I have been on the verge of tears almost all the time. It's so insane, it's just not me at all, and I don't get it.

Love you all <3

hey ladies, hope you're all doing well (:

i've been super stressed/busy lately, but i am fully enjoying my 3 day weekend! i had a girls night with my besties on thursday night, lazy night doing absolutely nothing on friday, work tonight, then a party after i get off, and then tomorrow i have to go work on my seminar for english class for a couple hours. and it's just my luck that i got assigned to a group with my ex. who flirts all the time. with me. -_- but surprisingly, even though i love it in the moment, i don't dwell on it as much as i used to, or get the butterflies thinking about him anymore, so i'm pleased to say that i think i am finally getting over him :)

one.

After all the lies and cheating, she still keeps her head up high. She has finally realized that you're not worth it and she doesn't need you.

two.

So if you want to go, then go. But I won't come after you this time.

three.

Why did I break up with him? Well, it's like I sat down and looked at all the pieces lying on the floor and it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. None of the pieces fit together. And even if I tried really hard, the pieces, well, they were from two different puzzles. That's why I did it. He needs to know that.

four.

Why do we keep them under our beds, in the attic, in the back of some drawer? We could have thrown them out a thousand times, and yet there they are - old love letters written to a person we no longer are, by a hand we no longer hold.

five.

I'm finally worthy. Worthy of happiness, life and love. Just to live life. And be myself.

six.

Something that really confuses me is that when couples break up, it's like they are expected to hate one another. So many people say that they hate their former opposite, but deep down they really don't. I guess hate is just a good disguise for missing what you had and being mad for whatever reason it is that you don't have it anymore.

seven.

I'm sorry I'm not who you thought I was, but what's happened is in the past and all I can do is try to change. If you can't accept that, then you're not who I thought you were.

eight.

Everyone knows that goodbyes aren't easy, so I'm not going to say goodbye. Instead, I'm going to say thanks for all the times you made me smile, for the times you kissed my forehead and my cheek instead of my lips. Thanks for the nights you held me when it felt like my world was falling apart, and the days you told me to get back up when I didn't think I would be able to get out of bed. Thanks for holding my hand and holding it so tight, for long drives with your hand on my knee and for the nights I didn't want to end because I didn't want to let you go. Thanks for showing me that I'm stronger than I ever thought I was, for telling me that I'm beautiful, for telling me that you never wanted me to leave. I never wanted to. Thanks for letting me cry until my throat was sore, and thanks for telling me that it was going to be okay. I believe it will be.

nine.

I just want the world to slow down. No, I want the world to stop right now. How can time just let things fall apart? Because for me, things fall apart and they never know how to be put back together. Things will never be put back together. No matter how hard I try, I know I'm going to lose you. You're one star in the sky of a thousand, but you're the brightest one, and I know you'll fade. You'll fade until I can't find you anymore. I can't find you anymore.

ten.

I'm tired of looking back. I look back, and then I start to run, and then I start to crawl. I can barely look forward anymore because of that piece of me that you took when you left. I'm still looking for it.

eleven.

I was afraid that if I allowed him to let go of me, then I would never be held like that again. I'm afraid that I will never find another person who fits with me as well as you.

twelve.

I know you probably wish you never met me, but I just hope you never forget me.

thirteen.

How do things change so fast? How can you just walk away? How is this so easy for you? Lately, it's been harder to breathe and the pain comes on fast. This was never the way I imagined it, because I never thought you would leave. You told me you never would and I believed you. Tell me how you could be so cruel. I never even got my chance to tell you, to explain to you that I would never intentionally hurt you. I was always going to be there. I promised you I would never leave. I never will. The difference between you and I is that I'm sorry, and you never were. I'm sorry that I didn't have the opportunity to tell you how badly you ruined things for me. This isn't how it's supposed to be. It wasn't supposed to end like this.

fourteen.

A second chance doesn't mean anything unless you learned something from your fist.

fifteen.

No one understands how much he means to me. I need him to breathe and to think; I need him to keep my heart beating. They don't understand that no matter what he puts me through - all of the pain and arguing and the insecurity and the hurtful words - I could never leave him. And I could never live if he left me. They don't understand the queasy-butterfly feeling I get whenever he touches me, whenever he holds my face in his hands, the gentle caress of his words that only I can hear, the way he makes me feel like the most spectacular girl in the world. This man is my world, and yet nobody understands it but him and I. That's how it will always be: just him and me.

sixteen.

I'm not quite sure why it is so hard to get my point across to you. I can only try so much and I can't be the only one trying. There have been so many times that I wanted to just give up, but I held on. For what? To get disappointed once again. I'm only so strong, and even though I love you, I hate you for hurting me. You're the one who is supposed to make me smile, but instead you make me cry.

seventeen.

I fall asleep every night with the hope that you'll call. When I wake up in the morning, and realize that you haven't, it hurts. It hurts more than it should.

eighteen.

Once said, always said. I will hold the past over your head. I will speak my mind whenever I feel slighted. I am hell bent on extracting all of my revenge. Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.

nineteen.

And in that moment, I just wanted him to push me hard against a wall and kiss me. I didn't want to think anymore; I didn't want to question it. I just wanted to feel it. Sometimes, all we need is just to feel it.

twenty.

As soon as you start to have romantic feelings for someone, you're fucked. You and this person are going to hurt one another. Even if you are together for the rest of your life, you are going to feel indescribable pain. When you're in, no matter how deep, you're in.